Drown me in pain until I’m soaked with anger
Don’t wait until I’m famished in a chamber
Throw me to your sea of emptiness
Until I’m full of loneliness
Your love for me disappeared with the ether
Like all the run away creatures
I’m no damsel in distress
Because there’s no knight in shining armor, I guess
I’ll just fight my own battle
To stop this juvenile prattle
When will these slumbered words wake up?
To reach out to wrenched ones in a grimy club
When will the catastrophe of my mind be at peace?
Hoping the pessimistic thoughts to cease
When will my empty soul be filled with jubilance?
To know that you have more than an insurance
When will the missing puzzle piece be found?
Because all I want is to be safe and sound
When can I dauntlessly indulge love?
Still praying for that one from above
When will the ice that embraces my heart melt?
To have that burning desire inside that smokes scent
These doleful words that you will encounter
Are for my beloved insensitive souls to devour
I didn’t volunteer for this nightmare
No one wants to be in a dark lair
This frigid soul just wants a pinch of your warmth
To be caught by your treacherous arms
You got me but with a slack heart
I’m indecisive and you’re inconsistent,
what a perfect match we are!
Can someone give me a potion?
To forget this petty emotion
To be free from this prison,
Grant me my extradition
These were the days
For autopilot in me is in raise
Follow your mind
And not thy heart, for you will be blind
Fuel yourself for the real deal
So you’ll be the driver of your own wheel
And by the end of the day
I’ll just say that “I’m okay!”
Then my younger sister would say…
“Are you now infected,
By this world full of neglected?”
I wasted most of my time
Did I really lived a life?
I just followed what’s right
And not the star that I covet in the cold winter’s night…
My eyes sting
I don’t want to cry anymore
My head aches
I don’t want to think of you anymore
My soul is drained
I don’t want to absorb this sadness anymore
My heart hurts
I don’t want to feel this way anymore
I can’t put this to words
My lips are pursed
I don’t know what’s wrong?
You, who is taking it too long
Or me, who’s just going along
I just need a quick repair
From a damage caused by despair
I don’t know what to feel anymore
I just fell in a trap door
What does it feel like to have a family?
Is it really that happy?
Never ending love and tenderness
Knowing that there’s always someone to back you up quickly
Unconditional love that is given endlessly
Like a blissful story..
That has an ending that is always schmaltzy
Like triple caramel cake..
It’s so sweet, that I want to puke a lake
Like a carousel ride..
Safe but mundane, that I rather refer to a roller coaster that’s like a wild tide
I am trapped by your presence
Does that make any sense?
I can’t focus
My mind is flying like a wild locust
What spell did you cast upon me?
Can anyone see it?
This feeling is getting deeper
It makes me want to go with the reaper
I just have one more question
Is this caused by my inhibition?
No time to feel emotions
Because there are other options
No time to acknowledge sorrows
Because it is just too narrow
No time to adjust for fun
Because if I do that, I need to catch-up
No time to heal what I feel
Because I’ll just drown and sink
No time to say this out loud
Because there is no sound