My State of Mind

Getting cold in this dungeon of sadness

My soul longs for the warmth of happiness

What can suffice this monstrous yet ineffable emotion?

The ghost of my nostalgia is always creeping in motion

My cathartic state has a vampiric relationship with my darkest corner

Yet, I don’t want to be a loner…

YOU ALONE

Tip toeing into the depths of death

Until I ran out of stealth

Desperately hiding my vulnerability

Covering it with bravery

Longing for your formidable exterior…

Can you digest my diabolical interior?

Anyone can summon the demon in me

But only you can tame it, until it flee

I was addicted by your mystery

Until I lost my sanity

The Wolf and The Moon

I am the wolf and you are the moon

Just a glimpse of you makes me swoon

I am the wolf and you are the moon

I always cry out for you, like a kid that lost his balloon

I am the wolf and you are the moon

This is the last time I’ll chase you in a desperate tune

I am the wolf and you are the moon

This is my last time to dream for you to come back soon

Dismal Tale

Drown me in pain until I’m soaked with anger

Don’t wait until I’m famished in a chamber

Throw me to your sea of emptiness

Until I’m full of loneliness

Your love for me disappeared with the ether

Like all the run away creatures

I’m no damsel in distress

Because there’s no knight in shining armor, I guess

I’ll just fight my own battle

To stop this juvenile prattle

Prisoner

These doleful words that you will encounter

Are for my beloved insensitive souls to devour

I didn’t volunteer for this nightmare

No one wants to be in a dark lair

This frigid soul just wants a pinch of your warmth

To be caught by your treacherous arms

You got me but with a slack heart

I’m indecisive and you’re inconsistent,

what a perfect match we are!

Can someone give me a potion?

To forget this petty emotion

To be free from this prison,

Grant me my extradition

Choose

My mind insists to be busy

My heart still finds meaning

My mind demands that I have to forget

My heart pleads that I’ll regret

My mind commands to go back into reality

My heart hopes that it will still end up like a romantic movie

My mind says I have to let go

My heart utters just wait a little more

TIME

Sometimes I want to leave this century

Most of the time I want to go to an age when people are just genuine and happy

Sometimes I compare myself to the “Great Depression”

Most of the time, I’m always with this recession

Sometimes I get jealous of the Berlin Wall

Most of the time I’m thinking, when will mine fall?

Sometimes I envy Wars that ended

Most of the time I’m thinking, when will the War inside me be disconnected?

CONFORMITY

These were the days

For autopilot in me is in raise

Follow your mind

And not thy heart, for you will be blind

Fuel yourself for the real deal

So you’ll be the driver of your own wheel

And by the end of the day

I’ll just say that “I’m okay!”

Then my younger sister would say…

“Are you now infected,

By this world full of neglected?”

I wasted most of my time

Did I really lived a life?

I just followed what’s right

And not the star that I covet in the cold winter’s night…