Make me sad and I'll write you a poem
3 in the morning, still wide awake
Rip my heart open and put a stake
Why wouldn’t You just set me free?
Let my soul gracefully flee
Am I not worthy of Your Kingdom Come?
My soul is tired, facing my monsters, unable to overcome
Why wouldn’t You just take me?
Hoping You give me the freedom to fade away
I wish I could turn back time
Maybe you’ll still be mine
I wish I wasn’t afraid
And just avoided the charade
I wish I showed that I care
Now your guard’s up, that’s fair
Sorry for breaking your heart
Now all I can do is love you from afar…
If you don’t believe in God, believe in karma. She will come at you when you least expect it. I pray for it.
Peace feels like boredom to me
My room an illusion of safety
The devil dances silently with my shadow
Do I want to be saved from this lovely meadow?
Cheating death with science
A game that we play with God in defiance
An endless parade of faces
I’ll find you in both holy & unholy places
If we are fated
Maybe we will meet before I am taken
When God permits our souls to meet…
I want to wake up with you in our home, in the bed that we share
I want to walk with you hand in hand in the streets so that everyone knows that you are mine and I am yours
I don’t want to give half of myself but to be able to give you all of me
I don’t want to be afraid of loving you
I don’t want to be afraid of being loved by you
This time there will be no walls
This time I will not hold back
I know there’s no such thing as forever and ever but I want to spend my eternity with you and only you…
I want to believe that you are out there, maybe wandering like myself
I want to have hope that one day we will finally meet
But until then, I will write love letters for you to read soon…
I’ll fall in love when I’m ready
Even if all my friends have relationships that are steady
I’ll fall in love when I’m ready
Not when I’m just feeling alone and lonely
I’ll fall in love when I’m ready
Not when I just feel lustful to another Timmy
I’ll fall in love when I’m ready
Not when I’m pressured by society
I promise I’ll fall in love again
To a one woman man
I promise I’ll fall in love again
After I heal and there’s no trace of pain
I promise I’ll fall in love again
To that one person who deserves to be loved as much as he loves by then
I promise I’ll fall in love again
And this time it’s going to be worth it, my friend
I still feel empty
Even if I’ve achieved plenty…
What really is my purpose?
I sometimes feel worthless
I want to fall in love with life again
I don’t want to pretend…
That success will end,
This misery that does not mend
When will this chase stop?
Everyone just wants to be on top
I want to live each day
To hear music that I can play
To dance in the rain
To walk and sway
To kiss someone’s tears away
To be present today
– Inspired by the Pixar movie Soul
I always come back to this place
I always want to go back and trace
The memories and people that I once chased and embraced
The people that I hate and love that are always in my headspace
People that I once trusted but turned out was a disgrace
People are predictable and disappointing and that’s a fact I’ll have to face
Swimming in the sea of despair
Looking for Mother and Father somewhere
They promised that they’ll come back in Winter
Patiently waiting for them by the river
There goes Mother with her new lover
There goes Father trying to recover
And I am still here by the river
Stuck with the thought of us to come back together
Big sister pick me up, pick me up from my misery
Big sister pick me up, pick me up Depression is killing me
Big sister pick me up, pick me up I’d rather be dead than to be here
Big sister pick me up, pick me up I’m always with Anxiety
Big sister pick me up, pick me up and help me please…
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